Okay, so I recently turned 20.
It's amazing how one little birthday can make you think so much, I have like a photo wall in my room, and it spans from pictures of my parents before my birth, right up until last years events. So, I'm looking at them and I'm just thinking that shit, 4 years ago it was my 16th birthday, look at everyone that was there, I don't even speak to a couple of these people anymore. Then, I get a little sad when I think about that this person moved away, or this person doesn't speak to any of us anymore. I guess I'm feeling a little too nostalgic at the moment, if I could rewind and do it all over again, I more than definitely would. I'm not trying to say that what I have right now doesn't make me happy, and I'm pretty sure there's certain aspects of my life I wouldn't really appreciate repeating... I just want the happy times when there literally wasn't a care in the world, and the most dramatic thing that happened was you falling out with your best mate at school, or finding out the person you fancied didn't feel the same. Now it's a case of not having enough money to pay the rent, or not being able to celebrate your birthday properly because of working or something stupid.
Either way, I miss everyone, and everything that I had 4 or 5 years ago.
You'll probably think I'm being pathetic writing about this as I can't do anything about it and I probably should just grow up and get over it, regardless of this I thought I should just get it off my chest.
Thanks for reading,
Amy
