Just so you know.

Okay, I'm not going to lie, I'm pissed off. I'm really pissed off.

Never in my entire life have I actually ever had to have to decide whether or not I wanted to be friends with someone before, because the majority of my friends never have hurt me.

But, I'm not going to lie, you did. You were friends with someone you know I hated, regardless of the fact that we were friends before, and you in fact, bitch and moan about her all the time.

It doesn't make sense to me. 

I told you all the shit that she does to people, and how much she hurts people, and yet you still wanted to be friends with her, regardless of the fact that you knew it was hurting me.

Everything I tell you, I tell you in confidence, which means, only you and you ONLY know about it. So, when I get nasty texts, threatening texts off a certain someone. I know full well that it was you who told them what they now know.

Even, when you told me you'd fallen out with this person, and that you didn't want to speak to them anymore, you still had to tell them something I told you in confidence, which made me look like a dickhead again. 

I'm finding it really fucking hard to maintain a friendship with you, I'm always there for you. I had feelings for you, but that is irrespective of everything else, because I put it to the back of my mind, as I didn't want to pressure you into anything.

I sit there and listen to you talk about someone you fancy, and yeah it hurts. But being your best friend means that I'm there for you, no matter what. 

Even after this, I don't know if I'll have the balls to fall out with you, because I'm not vindictive like that.

But everything is on very thin ice. 

I'm sorry I had to write this.

I'm sorry if you hate me, and don't want to be friends with me anymore. 

But it's something you need to know.