Here goes nothing...

Right, okay. 

I can safely say that writing this blog has terrified me for quite some time now. I genuinely didn't know how to tell everyone something that's been on my mind for a long time now. 

There's this guy, that many of you might know without realising.

I've known him for quite some time now, but I didn't realise how important he actually is to me, and without him perhaps I would probably be denying a part of myself. 

I suppose the best way of putting it is that there's a boy trapped inside my body, there probably always has been really. I kinda always knew he was there, but I never realised that he would be that important, in the last few months he's certainly started to become more prominent and there will be days that go by where I don't feel like anything but him. 

I'm not trying to say I want to change my gender, it's nothing quite as drastic as that and I doubt it ever will be. I just know he's there, and I want you all to know he's there. 

I'm still Amy, but then again, I'm now Buddy too. 

You'll probably not be able to tell when I'm Amy, or when I'm Buddy, the way I see it is that I'm both, and although they're in the same body, each have their own characteristics, and be quite different. 

I don't want any special treatment and I don't want you to treat me any different, because at the end of the day, I am still the same person, and Buddy has been here all along, I've only just accepted him being there. 

Thank you for reading, it means a lot :) 

Butch.

Right, it's about time I wrote a blog about something well, worth writing about. I finally settled on a topic, so I'm going to write about stereotypes in lesbians. 


"If lesbians are attracted to women, then why do they all look like men?"


I can safely say that there is nothing more irritating than hearing someone say that. You always hear that there are two types of lesbians, the butch, and the femme. The butch are considered the most "male" of the two. Is this because of the way they dress, the way they act, or more than this? Lesbians dressing or acting like men isn't just a case of having to because they're lesbians, it can be a definitive part of their personality which they express using men's clothing, or even styling their hair the way a man would.
If a woman wears men's clothing, or carries themselves in that manner, it doesn't mean the person inside is male. The person inside this exterior as a general rule, is a woman. They still have breasts and the genitalia of a woman. So, just because of the way they dress or act, they shouldn't be judged any differently, because at the end of it all, they are a woman. As a majority, they all think, and feel like a woman does. This is what most lesbians see when they look at a woman, they see who's inside them, not this exterior. It's all too simple to look a butch woman and think immediately that they act like a guy. 
In some cases, the personality does coincide with the way that they dress and present themselves, this could be to do with what makes them more comfortable, or deeper rooted thoughts and feelings. 
On a personal level, I usually feel more comfortable behaving like a male, as opposed to female. I do see myself as female, but I do feel as though my characteristics are particularly male. Being "girly" has never been my kind of thing since I was young, and I don't particularly feel comfortable enhancing the female part of my character as a general rule. I am comfortable in the body that I am in, but I can see the appeal of dressing and acting as a male. It's a lot easier to throw on a pair of jeans and a t-shirt on a night out, than pick out a dress, heels and wear make-up. 


To conclude, as a general rule, the way a lesbian may act and/or dress, does not necessarily mean that they're dressed as "men". They dress and act as they do because that's the way they feel most comfortable, and if it's their choice to do so, we should respect that rather than raise questions about their sexuality.