I can safely say that writing this blog has terrified me for quite some time now. I genuinely didn't know how to tell everyone something that's been on my mind for a long time now.
There's this guy, that many of you might know without realising.
I've known him for quite some time now, but I didn't realise how important he actually is to me, and without him perhaps I would probably be denying a part of myself.
I suppose the best way of putting it is that there's a boy trapped inside my body, there probably always has been really. I kinda always knew he was there, but I never realised that he would be that important, in the last few months he's certainly started to become more prominent and there will be days that go by where I don't feel like anything but him.
I'm not trying to say I want to change my gender, it's nothing quite as drastic as that and I doubt it ever will be. I just know he's there, and I want you all to know he's there.
I'm still Amy, but then again, I'm now Buddy too.
You'll probably not be able to tell when I'm Amy, or when I'm Buddy, the way I see it is that I'm both, and although they're in the same body, each have their own characteristics, and be quite different.
I don't want any special treatment and I don't want you to treat me any different, because at the end of the day, I am still the same person, and Buddy has been here all along, I've only just accepted him being there.
Thank you for reading, it means a lot :)
However you see it, each characteristic of either 'Amy' or 'Buddy' makes up you. And to me, you are an awesome friend that I love very muchly.
ReplyDeleteSomeone once said 'There is no such thing as gender, you just perform a woman' and ever since I heard that, I really believed it, because we're brought up through stereotypes. You talking about you being 'Buddy' to me, personally means your more masculine side and characteristics, which evidently is a lot bigger side to you, then the masculine side to most other girls. At the end of the day you are Amy to me (Or whatever name you wish to go by :P), a great friend, and someone that I love and can have an amazing time with, and share a lot of memories with. That will never change, and I wouldn't ever see you or treat you any differently because you see yourself in the way you said here.
You, like most other people have two completely different sides to them, and they make up one awesome human being :D <3 I miss you! x