rapture

So, here I am once again writing and shit.
I promised myself I'd be a lot more efficient with writing my blogs and then I realised I'm absolutely terrible at keeping anything up so just expect them sporadically.
So, it's approximately a week before Christmas, I have bought absolutely no presents for friends, family, or my girlfriend. Clearly, I fail on epic proportions and do not deserve a good Christmas. I genuinely do not feel as though I've had enough time to even breathe in the last few weeks, what with all my deadlines with Uni, and working every god forsaken weekend, all my days appear to have blurred into one massive collection of consciousness.
I was planning last night, as like all nights... to go out for a couple of drinks with my friends and girlfriend, but as always... nothing I ever do goes to plan and I ended up rolling in at Millie's at whatever time it was, completely hammered.
I'm bruised, I'm hungover, I ache, and I might have broken my finger. Furthermore, I feel like I've rolled about in a pool of my own sweat. Probably not the best I've ever felt I'm afraid. I was supposed to be cutting down on the going out recently, clearly it has gone well. I have absolutely no money for presents and I just can't work out where it's all disappearing! I'm beginning to wish that we got another loan payment just before Christmas, however that might end horrendously.
I've been in a bit of a predicament lately... I'm considering venting about it anonymously on here, but then again I can't seem to do anything these days without someone finding out. I would really just enjoy one stress free day, but I clearly am not allowed a stress free day leading up to Christmas. I can't even say that I'm in the spirit for it if I'm honest. People are really right when they say that Christmas changes as you get older, I'm really not looking forward to it like I used to, which is quite depressing. I guess that's relatively acceptable considering I'm almost entering my second decade of life.
It's actually quite strange beginning to think I'm going to be 20 soon... Also rather exciting though!

Christ, I've just realised I've actually talked total bollocks in this blog.
How about an idea, you give me a topic and I'll write about it?
Post on my Facebook or on here and I'll get writing.

Thanks for reading,

Amy