This is really fucking irritating. I'm absolutely knackered, but I don't want to go to sleep, and I'm hungry, but there's no food, and I have fuck all motivation for anything and I'm in a really shitty mood.
Anyway. I should probably cheer the fuck up and write something relatively interesting in here I suppose... I started back at Uni today, which I didn't appreciate considering I did a 9 hour shift at work last night, went home and then had to get up at 7 this morning, however it turned out to be 10 to 8 before I actually surfaced out of bed, which is rather bad really. One 2 mile walk later, I'm at Uni, sweating profusely, tasty.
Our first lecture was in Media, Culture & Society, it's our second assessment of the module, the module itself which I don't find particularly thrilling however contains a lot of written work, written work, I am good at, practical, I am not. Our second assessment is a group presentation which we have to present in class by 16th April, so in other words I am not celebrating my 20th birthday until after then, which is rather fucking depressing. In this presentation, we have to pick one of the themes which we were given in the first semester. I have picked the games theme, of course, and plan to produce some sort of voiceover Sim/Fallout/Skyrim footage explaining the subject!
I'm in a very pissy mood this evening, and I have no idea why... I've had a good night if I'm honest and have nothing particularly to complain about. Just had a lot of niggling thoughts in my head recently and I guess they're just taking over me a little more than I'd prefer. Let's just say, I have a certain feeling someone from my past may be coming into my future slowly but surely, and I'm becoming increasingly paranoid about this, especially since this situation arose originally at the point of not speaking to this person anymore. I just feel as though they're constantly out to get to me, in some way or another. I think everyone else around me thinks it's probably just me exaggerating the situation, but the thought of her being anywhere near me literally makes me panic and scares the shit out of me. I don't know whether to tackle the situation, or just let myself adjust to it and get over myself. I sound stupid if I read this back, but I thought I'd vent all over here!
Anyway, I'm bored of writing this now. I need topics for my blogs, I never have anything whatsoever to talk about in them other than myself, and only a certain amount of things happen in my life!
Thanks for reading :)
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